I have had enough. I am going to counseling and trying to get better and seeking new things to try but I am tired. Nothing is working and I keep hearing things take time. How much time? Because every night, I go through a living hell. I just can't take it anymore. I want to die and this to be over. I know it is a permanent solution for a temporary situation. This hasn't really been a temporary situation though. It has been 21 years. That makes me wonder. It doesn't really solve anything. I need a solution soon. I need hope because I can't see anything to look forward to. I need some relief... sigh!