I constantly miss school because I keep having seizures. I wish I could just end it all, and then I could stop dealing with seizures, and low grades, and makeup work, and all the stuff that accompanies it. I used to get straight A's...I always got honor roll. But not anymore. I can't stand it. Medication isn't helping. I don't see my doctor often enough, but he lives so far away that it's hard. The only reason I see him so far away is because he's the closest intelligent neurologist (not joking) in my area. The rest say there's nothing wrong with me. He actually knows what I'm going through, and treats me as well as he can. I just can't stand it anymore. Epilepsy is ruining my school life, and I feel like I can't get it back.