I worked insanely hard to get into university and study computer science and I'm there now. A few minutes ago I realized that I've missed too much and I can't keep up and I have no motivation left at all, my reserves are depleted. I'm barely keeping my head above water, and now I can't even get up in the morning. I've emailed their disability services to make an appointment. Posting this because I feel like complete shit, I've failed at everything I wanted yet again due to my illness. What the hell am I meant to do, I want a life not this shitty excuse for one.