i can't take this crap, thats all it is to me now, just everything is crap, crap crap crap crap. I try and god forbid will i ever get it right?, crap no, it's just god damn stupid to carry on like this atm if all i get is more crap. crap crap crap crap. it just messes up so damn easily and it's my own crappy fault. i'm not coping well at all, it's crap all of it, i'm just screwing up in the eyes of the world, and argh it's just crap. non stop. i guess my only merit is that i hold all this crap inside so well, now look at me i'm a crapping mess.