I don't really know what to write I'm not very good at talking about this "subject" but feel I need/should do.... Ok here goes.... I've dealt with this "problem" for a long time and have got used to it best I can but reacently more and more it's becoming worse... I've spent the last few days completly locked away from everyone (the best I can), I'm living in a shared uni house and people have started to notice I'm not myself but can't talk to them bout it... There is one friend I have who knows I have this "problem" but I don't feel it's fair for me to talk to her bout this because I'm seriously thinking of ending it this week and no one here would understand that.... I don't know what to do I keep trying to talk to organizations like the smaritans but just can not do it.. Just can't... I have had a meeting with a counciler but I'm on waiting list and at this rate it ant going to help... Sorry to ask but does anyone have any advice... I have no problem with ending it this week as il finally be free but can't do it to the people around me?????