I did it again. Only this time, instead of cutting myself <edit moderator total eclipse method> I burned myself with an eraser. My arm hurts so bad. It throbs and is burned<edit moderator total eclipse method> I can't stop going back over it over and over again, making it worse. It still doesn't look bad enough so I'm going over it again in a few mins. I want it to look so bad and nasty that it bleeds continuously and my mom can't help but notice it. I don't want to hide it from her. I want her to see the pain that I'm feeling inside of me and how I'm taking it out on myself.