After the latest attempt, I've made this plan of sorts. I want to escape from this life I have and heres how Im going to do it - Im going to find a remote and isolated piece of land near a beach somewhere. Hopefully in a national park so no one 'owns' it. I will take my motorcycle, fuel, a tent, loads of tools and food enough to last at least a couple of weeks. There by the sea I will make my home. I will sleep in the tent for the first few days, but over time I will build a kind of modest house or cabin out of the trees, driftwood and such around me. It will likely be very crude but all I will need to do is sleep in it and it wont be like I have visitors. I can use the motorcycle to drive into town to get supplies if I really need. I will set up near a little stream or creek for water and take with me books on types of fish and plants to eat. I will also take seeds and plants for vegetables to grow. I will work on the cabin or go fishing and gathering during the day and sleep when the sun sets and wake when the sun rises. These will be my only form of time keeping. I will also take with me a batch of sleeping pills so that if I become very ill or injured and cannot get myself back I have a way out. I'm not kidding myself: it will be incredibly tough but, hey, right now the only other alternative is suicide! It's either I go away and get away from all the pressures and just rely on myself or I die.