The person I loved and still love more than anything in the world no longer exists. Not because he's dead but because heroin took him away from me forever. Although now in recovery, he will never be the same again and neither will we. His personality has completely changed. First when he started using and now even more so that he's clean. I'll never be able to have the same person I first met, the one who loved me and would do anything for me. He's gone forever. And it feels like even though he didn't really die, he basically did. This drug is so evil and destroys everything good in the world. Destroys love. Destroys happiness. All I have now is his physical existence, but I loved him for so much more than that. And I know that in time, it won't hesitate to take me just like it took him.