Or should I say Morning, by the time this is read. May I first say warmest season's greetings to you all. Secondly, to the admins, cheers for hosting the messageboard. So, to the point. I have a slight concern about my mental state. I have absolutely no desire to take that final step, life to me is one of the most sacred things on this Earth. Yet, I find myself thinking, or suffering from suicidal thoughts. I have yet to figure out the correct word for this. For example, when I am in the train station and the express comes roaring past, I hear this little voice in the back of my head urging me to step off the platform. Or if I am on a high building, the same voice stridently suggests that I should leap off the edge. I know what will happen, and I know that I don't want to do what some part of my subconscious is yelling at me to do, and yet these thoughts keep coming, like some small child crying out for attention. Surely this can't be normal? Secondly, is there any way of dealing with this apart from the approach of ignoring them? Can they ever be silenced?