Hi,
Not really sure quite what i'm doing here but hey, if it helps...
Don't really know how to start this off so i may as well tell u a bit about me. I'm 18, female, living in cider country in the UK. I've just kinda been having a hard time over the last few months n i'm worried its started to affect people around me.
I've just done my A levels, results on thursday... N it just seems like everything has been waiting until i'm most stressed to hit. Last year my boyfriend n i split up after nearly two years together n it really affected me, even though i was the one who wanted the split i never realised how much i depended on him. I went back to my previous habits n was out alot of the time n not reli fussy about who i slept with, resulting, predictably in me getting pregnant. In the meantime, my boyfriend n i worked through the problems n we were back together, although only just. I was reli terrified bout telling him bout the baby but when i did he was amazing n said that he would do anything to keep me safe. Bout a week later, in the middle of my A level mocks, i lost the baby n i know it devastated him. Thats kinda part of it, i can't get over these feelings that i should have done something to save my child. I shouldn't have told my boyfriend, would have saved him the pain n i keep feeling like i, basically, killed my baby...
Anyway, i suppose i should stop waffling now :unsure:
Love n Light
Not really sure quite what i'm doing here but hey, if it helps...
Don't really know how to start this off so i may as well tell u a bit about me. I'm 18, female, living in cider country in the UK. I've just kinda been having a hard time over the last few months n i'm worried its started to affect people around me.
I've just done my A levels, results on thursday... N it just seems like everything has been waiting until i'm most stressed to hit. Last year my boyfriend n i split up after nearly two years together n it really affected me, even though i was the one who wanted the split i never realised how much i depended on him. I went back to my previous habits n was out alot of the time n not reli fussy about who i slept with, resulting, predictably in me getting pregnant. In the meantime, my boyfriend n i worked through the problems n we were back together, although only just. I was reli terrified bout telling him bout the baby but when i did he was amazing n said that he would do anything to keep me safe. Bout a week later, in the middle of my A level mocks, i lost the baby n i know it devastated him. Thats kinda part of it, i can't get over these feelings that i should have done something to save my child. I shouldn't have told my boyfriend, would have saved him the pain n i keep feeling like i, basically, killed my baby...
Anyway, i suppose i should stop waffling now :unsure:
Love n Light