Discussion in 'Welcome' started by indianwave, Aug 13, 2006.

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  1. indianwave

    indianwave New Member

    Not really sure quite what i'm doing here but hey, if it helps...
    Don't really know how to start this off so i may as well tell u a bit about me. I'm 18, female, living in cider country in the UK. I've just kinda been having a hard time over the last few months n i'm worried its started to affect people around me.
    I've just done my A levels, results on thursday... N it just seems like everything has been waiting until i'm most stressed to hit. Last year my boyfriend n i split up after nearly two years together n it really affected me, even though i was the one who wanted the split i never realised how much i depended on him. I went back to my previous habits n was out alot of the time n not reli fussy about who i slept with, resulting, predictably in me getting pregnant. In the meantime, my boyfriend n i worked through the problems n we were back together, although only just. I was reli terrified bout telling him bout the baby but when i did he was amazing n said that he would do anything to keep me safe. Bout a week later, in the middle of my A level mocks, i lost the baby n i know it devastated him. Thats kinda part of it, i can't get over these feelings that i should have done something to save my child. I shouldn't have told my boyfriend, would have saved him the pain n i keep feeling like i, basically, killed my baby...
    Anyway, i suppose i should stop waffling now :unsure:
    Love n Light
  2. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    Welcome, Indianwave :)

    I'm sure you'll find plenty of friendship and support here :)

    Take care, and I'll see you about the forum and maybe chat in the future! :hug:

  3. cheese

    cheese Member

    Hi! I'm new here too.

    I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your baby. I can't imagine how devastating that was for you, however, it's not your fault and you can't blame yourself. Best of luck to you and your boyfriend during the healing process.
  4. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    :welcome: to SF indianwave. I know you will find people to give you care and support while you are here. :hug:
  5. thedeafmusician

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  6. Wonderstuff

    Wonderstuff Staff Alumni

    :welcome: to the Forum, indianwave.
    I'm glad you posted :)
    I am sorry about the baby as well. Overwhelming and strange, when everything seems to come at once, and yet it usually does :(
    Take care, I'm sure you'll find friendship and support here, and if you need anything, feel free to PM :)

  7. Hey

    Welcome to the forum - I hope you find lots of support here and that SF helps you find your way through this

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