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Ever Cheated?

freddie

Well-Known Member
#1
I've been with my boyfriend for 7 months now.
I know it doesn't sound so serious, but after about 4 months, I slept with another boy.
Meaningless, emotionless, sex. Incomparible to the true sex I have with my boyfriend.
And, I told him, I had to, I can't lie about something so serious.
He's forgiven me now, although I'm sure it still affects him.
Anyway, I just wanted to know if anyone has cheated on their partner and the effect it had on them?
As for me.
It was severe, and I still struggle coming to terms with it now.
Just thinking about it is a major trigger for me.
How disgusted I am with myself for doing such a thing.
I think it was and has been much harder for me to come to terms with it than it was for my boyfriend.
I used to self harm. And recently having stopped for a fair few months now, my cravings for self harm have become more extreme, to a point where I was avid that I was going to cut off my d*ck for what I'd done :') I know I know that sounds wildly horrid, but seriously, I contemplated this for a solid month, to a point where I'd be holding the knife ready.
Hmm. My mental stability can be a bit wild.
But I'm much more stable now and figured, I have to move on, If my boyfriend can be amazing enough to forgive me for such a thing, then me dragging it out is not going to help.
Anyway, enough of me, lets hear your stories.
Hopefully I haven't just embarassed myself and made me look like an absolute prick haha :(
 

Sadeyes

Staff Alumni
#2
The fact that you feel so bad tells what type of person you truly are...and yes, I did cheat on a bf...years ago, went on a retreat and slept with someone famous (won't tell who), but opportunity to do so was strong than my rationality at the time...regretted it for a while and finally forgave myself too...J
 

freddie

Well-Known Member
#3
Ah nice to get a reply!
Yeh I guess it takes time, I'm getting over it slowly, I think you have to really, I hate to dwell, but I can't just forget shit I've done. Maybe I don't want to, I dunno.
 

Avarice

Well-Known Member
#4
No, and never ever intend to. I've been cheated on before multiple times and it hurts like hell. I commend you for being honest and telling your partner what you'd done; that may just be the reason he's stuck by you and you should consider yourself extremely lucky and never even consider doing it again.
 

freddie

Well-Known Member
#6
To be fair, it's not like I thought I would either.
I'm not that sort of person I thought I would've summed that up by now.
Not everyone cheats becuase it was planned or in spite.
We're human at the end of the day.
And human's do stupid sh*t.
 

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