The whole world is out to get you? Lately everything that's made me happy, is breaking me down. I'm literally losing friend after friend, some are blaming me; some realize they're at fault, but still blame me. My boyfriend keeps throwing more shit at me, yet he makes me happiest too; does that even make sense? Like.. I love that he wants to tell me everything. But, he literally tells me E V E R Y T H I N G. even the stuff he knows'll upset me. & then. I think he's lying to me about this. 'Multi-Personality' disorder thing he brought up. Don't ask me why, but it's a gut feeling. He said he used to have it, it'd last about a day as a kid every now and then. & lately it's been back lasting for like a few minutes. & then he said. He's allergic to the medicine too. So, i'm like.. wtf? It just.. I dunno'. I can't tell if it's my trust issues, or if he really is just lying to me for attention or what. I don't know why, but it feels sometimes like he's t r y i n g to break me down. Ever get that? & Then. Just. So much other shit going on at once. All breaking me down, making me feel like crap. I can't sleep. I'm forcing myself to eat. I feel really hot&really cold at the same time. I might even start getting sick soon if this keeps up, even I'm worried about myself; I can usually hide it. But, lately.. I can't hide it. I don't know exactly what's wrong, or how to explain it.