Ever feel like..

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by so.overratedx, Feb 22, 2010.

  1. so.overratedx

    so.overratedx Active Member

    The whole world is out to get you?
    Lately everything that's made me happy, is breaking me down.
    I'm literally losing friend after friend, some are blaming me; some realize they're at fault, but still blame me.
    My boyfriend keeps throwing more shit at me, yet he makes me happiest too; does that even make sense?
    I love that he wants to tell me everything.
    But, he literally tells me E V E R Y T H I N G.
    even the stuff he knows'll upset me.
    & then.
    I think he's lying to me about this.
    'Multi-Personality' disorder thing he brought up.
    Don't ask me why, but it's a gut feeling.
    He said he used to have it, it'd last about a day as a kid every now and then. & lately it's been back lasting for like a few minutes.
    & then he said.
    He's allergic to the medicine too.
    So, i'm like..
    It just..
    I dunno'.

    I can't tell if it's my trust issues, or if he really is just lying to me for attention or what.
    I don't know why, but it feels sometimes like he's t r y i n g to break me down.
    Ever get that?

    & Then.
    So much other shit going on at once.
    All breaking me down, making me feel like crap.
    I can't sleep.
    I'm forcing myself to eat.
    I feel really hot&really cold at the same time.
    I might even start getting sick soon if this keeps up, even I'm worried about myself; I can usually hide it.
    But, lately..
    I can't hide it.
    I don't know exactly what's wrong, or how to explain it.