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Ever feel you were just unlucky?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by AlexRA, Dec 10, 2008.

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  1. AlexRA

    AlexRA Member

    All throughout my life I believed if you lead a life where you were nice and helpful, good things would happen. Yet I never do anything wrong, I try to help everyone just to be nice whether or not I will receive happiness myself. Yet in all my life, I can't think of once being happy. All I do day in and day out is help people, make others happy, and every day I can just feel my life would get worse.

    My life finally hit the point tonight where I wished I could do something destructive, with no fear of pain or death. The thing that stops me is the pain I would cause to my family and that's it.

    Anyone else just ever have their life turn out like this? Perhaps worse, maybe just similar?
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hi Alexra,

    Welcome to SF. I'm glad you found us :welcome:

    I can actually relate to this. I used to be the same, I was almost too nice, too helpful. I think when you're like that with people, they tend to take advantage and see you as a soft touch. Maybe you should forget everyone else for once and concentrate on helping yourself. :hug:
  3. AlexRA

    AlexRA Member

    It's actually Alex RA, couldn't think of anything so I just mixed my middle and last initials together. Thanks for welcoming me.

    The thing is, I tried to make myself happy for once. And I was happy, for awhile. And now that period of my life sort of just blew up in my face, and now I just feel worse than ever.
  4. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hello Alex,
    :shake::welcome:to the forum. I can relate to you. I was brought up to beleive that all people are caring. Boy was I mislead. I wore my heart on my sleeve and had it knocked off several times and trampled into the dirt. I finally deduced that not all people are nice, so I pushed everyone away around twenty years ago. I won't let anyone even get close to me any more, this includes family. I don't tell them anything. I have isolated my self to my bedroom for the last fifteen years. I feel safe here because no one can get near me.
    I have been living with my sister ever since I had my breakdown fifteen years ago. I don't talk to her about my thoughts because she repeats them to others. I go to my brothers house sometimes on the weekend to help him work on his property. He has people stopping by all the time. He's an alcoholic and when he runs out of stories to tell his friends he tells them all my problems. I have gotten to the point where I go in the house when they show up and stay there until they leave.
    I have found that the forum is made up with good people. They offer support when you are down and when they are down you offer them support. They should hold a reunion so everyone can meet each other in person. (PIPE DREAM). Sorry I spilled my guts to you. I got way off subject.
    I just ment to tell you that there are alot of us here with similar problems!! If you need to talk a little more freely then PM one of us. Take Care!~Joseph~
  5. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support


    I know I've felt that way. I suspect that most people have had their moments.

    The trick is to keep striving to improve on bad situations or to just accept what we can't change and then move on with hope for better times. Easier to say than to do, but you can turn to the people here at SF for support and encouragement through the rough times. :hug:
  6. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    Hey Alex.
    I can totally relate to this. All throughout my life i have bad things happen to me, and i think why me? I never do, or don't do much, wrong but still bad things happen to me. I was always told bad things happen to bad people, but it seems to me that couldn't be farther from the truth.
    :hug: If you'd ever like to talk please don't hesitate to pm me. :)
  7. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Alex.
    As you can see, a lot of people feel the same way. Well, you will see that more if you stick around the forum :)

    I hope you can begin to do things to empower yourself and do things for you to make yourself happy. The only real way to give happiness to someone else is if you have it yourself.

    As for feeling unlucky. My life is pretty shitty, and I want to die. Yet I still can see the positive in what I've gone through. I imagine why I might have wanted to go through it, as I see everything in life as a choice. When I think about where I'm going, why I'm where I am, and the positives in it all, I can sometimes feel a little bit more hopeful.
    Seeing your situation as a case of bad luck can leave a person feeling rather hopeless. If you can know that you're where you're at for a reason and that it's not just bad luck then you can start to make changes. And we can help and support you through that.

    Anyway, sorry for making this long. Welcome to the site :). Every have any questions or want a friend to talk to, just send me a message :D :hug:
  8. touglytobeloved

    touglytobeloved Well-Known Member

    Yes, worse...
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