Ever felt like you just don't want to do anything?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by lymeinside, Dec 10, 2006.

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  1. lymeinside

    lymeinside Well-Known Member

    I don't really know what's wrong with me anymore. I guess I am depressed, but it feels like there is something else that is just deep-rooted in me.

    For the past 1-2 months I have just not wanted to do anything. I feel extremely apathetic about everything. I am unemployed so I don't have to go to work. All I do is sit here. I just feel exhausted all day no matter how long I've slept. I eat maybe 1-2 meals a day if I'm lucky. I feel like I have no interests at all anymore. I don't even watch tv. I rarely speak more than a few words to my family.

    When I sleep I try to just sleep for a long as I can. If I wake up I try to fall asleep again. I just keep doing that until I can't possibly fall asleep anymore. By this time it's usually about 3PM in the afternoon. All I do then is mope around the house all day until I fall asleep again.

    I know I should be looking for a job, but I just don't. I don't know why, I just don't even bother. I'd rather just not do anything at all. I have absolutely no motivation. I just feel doomed, or hopeless. If I try to think of what my future will be like, it's just black, like there is no future.

    If I could just sleep forever I think I would love it.

    Has anyone ever felt like this? How did you get over it? I really need some help here. I don't know what to do.
  2. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    That is severe depression, if you're not on anti depressants you need to be and if you are the'yre not working. See your doc.

    And yes someone is feeling just how u feel and doesn't know where she found the energy to reply :sad:
  3. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    I agree!!!!!!
  4. life

    life Well-Known Member

    ıf ı take my self ın an example ı have a problem due to that problem ı feel sometımes LIKE U DO...IF MY PROBLEMS DOESNT GO AWAY I WILL FEEL THE SAME AND SAME WAY FOREVER
  5. I feel like that every day of the week. Despair is not a very invigorating emotion, is it ?
  6. Bob26003

    Bob26003 Well-Known Member

    Hello, it has been two yrs with me since I dropped out of College, quit work, and gave up on life.

    Motivation IMHO is what is all comes down to. I have had no success with SSRIs or antipsychotics. The only medication that helps me is Benzodiazepenes.

    I think to even attempt to get better you have to have motivation.

    Somehow it seem to me that psych community expects a person to get better without being happy. What is the point?

    From my experience that is waht it comes down to : Happiness.

    If you are happy, you will do things, you will be motivated, and this will be better for your mind.

    It is a vicious cycle.
  7. Hey

    Hey Active Member

    Yes. But usually that's because I'm watching television. I used to think life's highs went like this:

    -Love/Romance/Having A Child

    Afterall, this is 100% of what television promotes. In their liberal construction of relatable drama. To me- this is quite mundane. :laugh: Bouncing between transient highs and lows (death/loss/depression), occasionally with a twist of neutrality/content, but ultimately you're inside this bounce until death.

    But then I realized there's MORE out there. Right now I don't feel happy, depressed or even indifferent. I feel like "now". Whatever someone would call that. I also believe in the search for 'more' as something that has never been discovered. Not religion, spirituality or any other type of known entity/idea.
  8. lymeinside

    lymeinside Well-Known Member


    I am not on meds or anything like that. I actually was on paxil for anxiety about 4 years ago but I haven't been on anything for a good 3 years.

    And yeah, the biggest problem for me is motivation. I barely even have the energy to make something to eat sometimes. It is impossible to make any positive changes on your own when you feel like that. I am depressed because of my current situation in life. It's a viscious cycle, as you can see...

    as far as good news goes, though:

    I was dragged along to go Christmas shopping all day today. I am so glad I did it. I actually hardly feel depressed at all. This is the best I've ever felt in months. It felt good to actually get out and do something. I was smiling and laughing. It felt like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders.

    I'm sure it is only a temporary relief, but I'm so thankful for it.
  9. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    since 2 weeks ago i don´t go to work,i like it but i don´t want to go
  10. stevie

    stevie New Member

    i feel almost exactly like that. i have healthy interests and talents but they get overshadowed because my responsibilities have to come first and my responsibilites are nothing but negative stress in my life and i feel like giving up. im still in HS(last year thank god) and i do alright in school, but its just like screw it because i dont feel like i can get anywhere in life. if i could i would just sit at home alone and drink until i put myself to sleep and when i wake up, just drink some more and repeat the process. maybe put some depressant drugs in the routine too. im sure many others can relate too, and everybody will say its a total pessimistic mood, but ive never personally seen "the light" of the future so how can there be something optimistic to it? i cannot help but i sure can relate and i know what you are going through
  11. altek001

    altek001 Well-Known Member

    ...as adverse to sleep as i am...

    ..sleeping forever...into eternity...would be lovely.

    ...i can't help you here...i'm just here to say 'me too..'

    i'm sorry..
    - Henry
  12. MsElle87

    MsElle87 Well-Known Member

    I been feeling emotionless lately, like one among the walking dead and I don't understand it, don't I feel this way for a reason? What is it? I'm looking for it but I don't know what it is
  13. Suckstobeme

    Suckstobeme Guest

    Lymeinside, no offense but don't your parents even care that you're essentially mooching off them? If not, then you're living my dream. I would love to be able to sleep all day and not have to study or work. In fact, I would say those two things are the main contributors to my pessimistic attitude towards everything. So I'm kind of confused in that regard. Are you saying you actually want to "do something with your life" (and if you do I certainly applaud you because I know I wouldn't want to if I had the choice), but the only thing that's stopping you is sluggishness? If you had the energy, do you think you'd want to find a job, or would you still prefer to stay home all day? Just curious, please enlighten me.
    Last edited: Dec 11, 2006
  14. am I alive

    am I alive Well-Known Member

    Very familiar feeling
  15. ~Nobody~

    ~Nobody~ Well-Known Member

    This is exactly how it is for me. I have such difficulty being motivated to even get changed out of my PJs every morning, never mind finding the motivation to actually leave the house and socialise in any way.

    But when I do, 9 times out of 10 I'm really glad I did it :smile:.

    I hope you have the kind of friends/family that will drag you places on a fairly regular basis until you are able to motivate yourself.

    Are you getting any kind of professional help at all for your depression? If not, are you thinking about seeking some?
  16. querida

    querida Well-Known Member

    OMG! I feel like I just read something that I have written myself. I know exactly how you feel. I thought that nobody could understand.
  17. LetItGo

    LetItGo Staff Alumni

    Sounds like me a good percentage of the time. Up until a month ago I had been working consistantly for around 10 years...now i dread going back to work, i just hate the thought to be honest, but I know I have too, theres so much I need to do, and a good percentage of it involves money unfortunately.

    Lately all ive been doing is eating, sleeping, drinking, the odd walk, and playing around on the computer. When i have to go back to full time work, im going to miss a lot of people on this site, a lot of the time.

    Grr why doesnt money grow on trees? Nobody has ever given me a decent answer for that!
  18. lymeinside

    lymeinside Well-Known Member

    Well, since about August I have not worked or done much of anything. My parents do care that I do nothing, but they haven't done anything about it. I sometimes honestly wish they were more strict. I'd probably be better off if they kicked me out earlier before I became so lazy and useless.

    Yes, I do want to change. I basically have no life, no friends, no job, no girlfriend. Who wants to live like that? Not me. I have an anxiety disorder that causes me to avoid many things, such as going out in public, talking to people, talking on the phone, job interviews etc. I know I should probably see a doctor about it, but I don't.

    If I wanted to, I could probably just lay here forever and become a 40 year old man that never leaves his house. I don't want it to come to that though. I want to have a normal life some day. If I didn't, I don't think I would even be on a suicide forum, because it wouldn't even bother me.
  19. Suckstobeme

    Suckstobeme Guest

    I see. It seems we have more in common than you could probably imagine. Everything you said pretty much resonated with me, except for the anxiety disorder. While your ostensible fear of people forces you into seclusion, I actively choose to avoid them because, frankly, I can't stand most people.

    I definitely understand where you're coming from when you said that if you could just sleep forever, you would. Personally, the best moments of my life have transpired in my dreams, as sad as it sounds. Everything in the real world just seems so dull and pointless, doesn't it? Luckily everyone dies eventually, so it's not like this pain will last forever.

    In the meantime, just try and accept things for the way they are - shit - and not get too worked up about anything. Don't let your emotions control you. Let life take you where it will, and find as much joy in it as you can. Like I said, pain is transient.
    Last edited: Dec 12, 2006
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