Ever get that excited feeling? You know the one where you start shaking uncontorably and people just stare at you and some ask you what's wrong? I get that but it's not because I'm excited. I'm crazy, or THEY tell me that. I shake and shake I'm so angry, I just want to smash my head into a wall until I die, or get hit by a moving car. I've imagined my death before, you know. It's not very peaceful, I don't want to die peacefully I want to die of I feel every day... Broken, that's why a car would work. Oh I'm accused of being on drugs, perfect, THEY think I am, it's just that I'm sick I mean actually sick, n may have a broken rib n may have a pinched nerve in my leg... It don't matter tho I don't know what to do to help myself without them knowing... I need help! Can anyone give me answers on how to get better without THEM knowing?