Do you ever just have the feeling that you basically take up space? That is how I feel right now. I know I am physically sick and sometimes that causes the depression to worsen. But i dunno...I don't know how to describe and put down here how i am really truely feeling right now. I don't want to be here. I really don't and i don't mean on this forum, I mean in this world. I do not matter! Nothing matters to me. I was beginning to have some hope, but now, that hope is dwindling to desperation again! This cycle doesn't end, it is one continuous one. round and round. PPl care , yes it's true. but there is no way noone can know what i feel. noone but me. and im tired of trying to explain it. just physically drained from it all. Depression....YOU WIN! I give up! Take me!