A lot of times I just don't care about anything, I lose interest in everything. I don't care about school, working, money, cars, spending time with family, trying to make friends, no hobbies, no nothing. I feel like this when my depression worsens, I don't feel like doing anything pretty much. But I feel like a weirdo, freak show, crazy person, when I stop caring about everything. Who in their right mind doesn't care about anything? It's like my body can still operate, get up in the morning, bathe, feed myself, go out for a while, but my mind doesn't do anything, it just sits there, no motivation, no goals. Even the people that I spoke to in the past who dealt with heavy depression always had stuff they cared about, goals, stuff that keeps them going, I am so embarrassed that I don't feel any of that. I think "what's the point in me living if I don't even live for anything, I don't care about anything". I feel like I should be ostracized from society, "how dare I not care about anything". I feel alone in this, who in the world doesn't care about anything? It's why it took me a while to complete high school, it's why I never had steady employment, because I just didn't care, I was too depressed to care, but my whole thing is I don't really know anybody else who is depressed and doesn't care about things such as work, school, getting married having a family one day, who is that crazy to not care about any of those things? One thing I do have is a caring for others, I have such a capacity to show compassion to others, to care for the less fortunate. But that is my downfall because I am extremely sensitive and touchy. I wasn't like this my whole life, I used to care, my childhood was a happy one. I still do care about things at times, but every time I get a heavy bout of depression these feelings come back. When I was with my gf I started caring about life, about school, about work, having money, all of that, but now that I'm not with her I'm back to where I've always been. Can anyone else relate?