I have periods and bouts where my depression is bad where I want to remove everything I'm on, online. It's like I go through a liquidation process and don't want to deal with a load on my shoulders by having to routinely check everything. When I know in advance that nothing interesting is ever going to come out of it. I've tried deleting my FB over a dozen times, but I keep coming back feeling I'll alienate everyone. Only to be met with the same results the longer I stay - complete silence. I start going around other places I'm at, deleting or asking for deactivation of accounts because I just simply don't have the will to continue interacting in the community. Ending up abandoning accounts too when they're tied to e-mails I later delete. People don't even have the common courtesy to be asking about my reasoning, they just watch me as I practically destroy everything around me. They must think it's an immature act when really, I'm emotionally unstable and so frustrated with how many things are running in place for me right now. They sometimes tell me that I should do whatever I think will make me happy. Newsflash, I DON'T know what makes me happy! And if I did, it'd be death but I'm not going down that route just yet. I'm just going around deleting what I think is a problem for me when chances are likely I'm just deleting for the sake of deleting. I do have people who miss me when I leave but it's unfortunate that they don't grasp the bigger picture by me not telling them or that they're understanding by fractions. I can't even tell who I should remove from my life anymore. I've dispatched two long-tenured friends of mine whom I felt were not doing anything for the benefit of my friendship. I've vaguely detailed about what they've done in another thread of mine. I felt that if they aren't going to do anything for the benefit of their lives, then what could they possibly bring to the table for our friendship to stay afloat? We've seen better days, for sure, but I believe we've finally reached a deadend. It sucks, but something has to be done and if they don't want to do anything - I will. Sometimes I just want to disappear from everything and not be found again.