Ever wondered how it feels.. - When you love him [but you don't like him, ok, confusing I know] to death... and even tho he thinks you're worthless you still love him? - When you're willing to do anything and give up everything just to make sure that he's safe and happy? - When your life is like a worthless and aimless life without him, and it's all your fault? - When you've attempted cutting for countless times but you can't be a cutter because of a promise? - When he walks past you like you don't even exist, you try to ignore him, but then turn around and cry? - When you have to stop yourself from crying everytime you see him? - When you hope that your life's a dream so that once you wake up everything'd be ok? - When you want him and need him but he's not there? - When you never told him that you loved him, but wishing that you had? - When you cry every single night... - When you miss him every single second... - When you'd do anything to help him but you can't.. - When you're giving up your life goals for something that's never gonna happen... - When you love him so much... when he's all you can think about.. when you're just obsessed..... but he thinks that you're just *screwed*..? - When you try to help him, but he swears whenever anyone mentions your name? - When you blame yourself for anything and everything that goes wrong...? - When one smile from him would be worth more than anything..when one hug from him would be enough to keep you happy for the rest of your lifetime..? xx I love you Niko.. always and forever..