I complain all the time about the same thing...the depression and hopelessless I feel every day. I really can't help it, though. It hurts. I watched the original Alice in Wonderland a couple of days ago. It was my favorite when I was a little kid, and it made me happy (a lot of disney movies used to make me happy)...I felt like a kid again watching it. I felt an ounce of that same happiness that I used to. But now I'm sad thinking about it because I hardly ever feel this happiness anymore. This is a pain that only mind-altering drugs can take away, those which make me delusional and unaware of what's going on around me. Not anti-depressants. Why is this happening? I'm at my college right now, recently finished my lunch, and now I feel the lonliness building up and I feel like crying. But there's no reason to. Nothing is even wrong. Why do I feel so bad when nothing is wrong? Why does everything seem so pointless? I just wish somebody could help me.