I buried my still born twin son 3 weeks ago. Never seen a white coffin before. That is when i began to detach myself from reality and the pain of loosing so much. I l already lost my brother 7 years ago> he was only 31. My 'partner' has absolutely no emotional intelligence. I am on my own with this one. Hence suicide seems more and more of a comfort than being constantly mis- understood and completely detached from life.