Does anyone ever feel like every day they feel like they get a little closer to the end? living should not be this tiring but it is....waiting for the day to end is no way to ‘live’ yet thoughts of the hurt I would cause my family and being in hell keeps me here. How the heck do you long time survivors do this? I have been in this hell for 3 years and it feels like an eternity........never would have thought retirement would lead me here. All because of one person who destroyed my life one fateful day, Thanks for listening to my frequent rants about the same thing.