i just started cutting 4 years ago... and it´s like an addiction now. i feel like i need it, like i´ll die if i don´t do it, my hands start shaking sometimes...and when that happends my dessesperation gets worse. i´ve started with little cuts and now are bigger...even creative, i have a scar of a cross on my left arm. and the worst part of this is that i want to still doing it..i don´t want any help i just want too keep doing it over and over again. Am i so bad? am i so insane?