every day, the suicidal thoughts are there

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by lymeinside, Dec 28, 2009.

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  1. lymeinside

    lymeinside Well-Known Member

    every day, the suicidal thoughts are there, and it gets tiring. something goes wrong, and it reminds me of how miserable i am, and immediately my mind goes 'god, i want to kill myself so badly'. i'll screw something up, and think 'i can't wait until i commit suicide'. each and every day. it get so old, but i can't even control it anymore. the suicidal thoughts haunt me at all times.

    i hate it.
     
  2. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    I've been playing that same recording over and over and I know just how tiring it gets. It becomes a mantra. But it is almost comforting too cuz you know you can fall back on the urges when things get too out of control.

    I'm bipolar and even when I'm on an up cycle the thoughts are still there!! I dont know what to say to make it any better for you. But I wanted you to know I understand and you arent alone in this battle :arms:
     
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