every day i go to bed wishing that i will not wake up in the morning, hopeing that maybe something will happen in my sleep, and every day i wake up dissapointed. even after trying to od several times, i pass out wishing that this will be it, but i keep waking up and with no adverse side effects. other people have died taking less, but it seems that unfortunately my body does not want to go. every day is a dissapointment, maybe tonight will be different but i doubt that it will be. does anyone else feel the same?