I think about ending it all. I have no idea why, I don't have that bad of a life. I have a decent but unsatisfying career with good job security... and wife that I believe loves me.. Although she did move away from me to attend school. She doesn't really talk to me too much on the phone anymore.. It seems that we just don't have much to talk about I suppose. I have some nice stuff, I know that some people aren't as fortunate as me to have a decent apartment with cable TV and other amenities. I don't have many friends, but I do value the ones close to me. A lot of people have destroyed my trust in the past, but I am still willing to trust some people.. Plus my job requires me to move around a lot.. So, I am not in one location for too long. I guess it's just my life seems stagnant. I would like to probably try something else career wise.. but I don't have much direction.. A lot of people in my line of work are quite biased and don't have much experience out of their career field (and I can't just up and quit because I am under a contract). I just feel that I am lacking a lot and not living the life I want / or am supposed to have. I don't have the option at the moment to change my life career wise and I miss my wife a lot and I don't know if she feels the same way.. She just doesn't talk about her feelings at all and seems quite distant emotionally, not just by physical distance. I just wish I could deal with things better.. quite often I think about putting my confusion to an end.. I wish I didn't think like that because it is quite immature and devastating, but it seems so easy.. I used to think about it a lot when I was younger.. Ugh.