Im a new member, so i hope this gets through. Every night i wonder if ill go get <mod edit: *sparkle*: methods>. Every night i start thinking through the day and see that i have less than 10 real friends. including my family. every night i listen to my ipod, and tonight was the night im seriously starting to think about HOW am going to end it. the most dominant idea being <mod edit: *sparkle*: methods> in the middle of my health classroom.The problem is that 1. i dont really want other people to feel guilty or anything i just want a few people to watch 2. the whole 6th commandment thing 3. my family doesnt seem to have apathy towards me, except my 10 year old brother who asks me to leave the room everytime we talk. I also immitated a <mod edit: *sparkle*: methods>. i wish i knew that people liked me. but i cant really ask. I used to only cry from emotional stuff (dad yells at me then asks sarcastically why im crying, the brother thing after i leave) but now i find myself doing it at the slightest thing. idk, i just feel like my life sucks right now. PS: plz dont put "Hi" or "*hug*", that just sorta annoys me. no offence to ppl who do that.