There's that, the fact that I'm failing my senior year in high school, and that I'm alone most of the time. Geniunely alone, unlike what most people mean by alone. I don't have a lot of friends and I stay home all the time. I have no social life. I sit next to this girl and I found myself really liking her personality and whatnot. She inspired me to start writing more. She has a boyfriend now, and another friend who I'm pretty sure she's in love with. That, and I think she thinks that I'm kind of a creep. This would be like, the third or fourth time this kind of shit has happened to me. I'm really sick of it happening and if it continues to happen I might just have to kill myself. In addition to all of this bullshit, I'm doing so horribly in school right now it's not even funny. I don't want to repeat another year here, and if it happens, I'll be a worthless failure. There's a possibility that I won't be anything after high school. I think I may do it. I've calmed down a little, but I don't want to be a whiny bitch and say I'll kill myself without actually doing it.