If only i could score the heroine right now. Then, maybe I could OD now instead of waiting for people's kindly deceit to take a hold of me. I can't wait to be away fron this disgusting evil place with the selfish human race. Reading my suicide note helps me keep my nerves but its honestly starting not to matter whether or not I go painlessly. Im gonna keep my promise. My mother said a long time ago if im gonna commit suicide don't do it in her house. I plan to do it in a park a sunny place I like.