Reality is in about 2 weeks we have no money and soon no house and I will through my looser ways will make a wife and two daughters homeless, well maybe not I get enough from the VA to pay a mortgage but that’s it, no water, no gas, no food, no electricity.
So yes the people who depend on me I have let down and been the major disappointment they expect from a looser like me. However I die tonight, in two weeks she gets my VGLI that’s enough to move on pay off and then sell the house for profit and get on with someone who isn’t the piece of shit that I am
So I have called the VA for an appointment to start some therapy or whatever they want me to have and in the meantime I’m spending every feee minute silently praying for my death