Every time

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Lilly, May 9, 2011.

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  1. Lilly

    Lilly Well-Known Member

    It feels like...
    Every time i do it I feel really scared and bad about it
    because what if someone sees and then i have to lie and they dont believe me anyways
    and that makes me want to do it more..
    But i DONT WANT to do it at the same time
    and it starts a whole cycle each time....
    And i went months without doing it so idk why i am now....i just...started again and idk why i even did....and the whole cycle begins again and idk how to get out again.....
  2. Julia-C

    Julia-C Well-Known Member

    Sweetie I understand. I assume you are referring to cutting or something along those lines. I never was a cutter. My pain of choice was always burning. I haven't in more then five years, but when I was I did because the feeling I felt seemed more real then reality. So I do understand. I will tell you that it takes a lot of determination to stop. It did me at least. Just try not to, and realize that if you mess up and do, it doesn't make you a failure. Just be strong. It's not easy I know, but it is something you have the strength to do even if you feel you don't. :hug:
  3. Push

    Push Well-Known Member

    I know how you feel. I have stopped before and then start up months later, back and forth. I hope we all figure out how to quit for good.
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