Can't find anything positive about dying?All the ones who can prove it right are all dead.If you love someone do you really want him or her to suffer from this pain all /his/her life becoz it will hurt you/others? It is not right.How about my suffering? At least ,I know that I am not a burden to the people around me/community anymore at least give us that ultimate dignity.When suffering overwieghs living to the point of misery 3/4 of the year its time to go.I think lots of people are telling people not to do it becoz the fine line between painful existence & living a normal life is blurry. Plus the dogmatism of religion that death is sacred,that is all up to god, is all bullshit. People like me who are carrying a lot of pain(objective/subjective) who do not wanna subject ourselves under the mercy of other peoples pity or help; should be supported to go.Asking for help is a big deal for me , I cannot allow it to happen that I can no longer wipe my own ass. I will set up my healthcare providers to talk to my son in a positive way. How could I be a better mom if I am deppressed everyday & him seeing me succumb to my death day in & day out.What kind of life is that for my son? this is torture for a kid or for anybody.I have to plan ahead. It is pitiful though to kill your self just for a goddamn man. Its pathetic.