I see the consistency of the urge to die for many or most people at least once in their life. I am not alone, even though I feel so lonely. This is the only place where I can process my thoughts and feelings without threats. If I didn't find this site, I probably would have tried another attempt again. I try to stay positive and remind myself how horrible it was to survive a horrific suicide attempt and live to remember it. I cannot shake the past but I have to go on. There's too much at risk and I just hope for a better day everyday I wake up. It's not easy being a survivor and believe me, I know the feeling of just giving up. I've done that too many times through my multiple attempts in my life. Somehow, I just can't die and I just have to cope with life. That's the hard part...to cope with life. Just find inspiration here and maybe that's enough to keep you going...if nothing else will. I just have to hang on. Hope you all do too. We are not alone.