Each and everyday I think of ending my life. Suicide seems like the only way out. I am so confused about this life and have found that it will never change. I attempted to end my life about a year ago and failed. I seem to fail at everything I do. I feel like a burden to other people. I feel out of place when I am around other people...like I don't fit in. I feel like the odd man out. I feel like I am a waste of people's time. I am useless and worthless. I'm only afraid that I may not do it right this time even though I have thought it out and researched much. I self harm often for a variety of reasons. I am so depressed and yet try to pretend everything is okay with me when I am around people. I have had many ECT Treatments and am on many meds to help me, but I wouldn't feel suicidal all the time if this stuff was working. I have depression, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder...just to name the more prevalent issues. Life is so very difficult. I find everyday an extreme challenge and am very tired of trying so hard. My world is so dark and lonely.