The day that I woke up from my attempt changed my life. The person I told ended up signing papers to send me to a mental health facility. From that day on and the events that happened to me in the weeks to follow; I learned that I can't really tell people what I am feeling or struggling with. This has made the last 10 years very difficult for me. I actually tried to end things 10 years ago last month. Time goes on and people around you that know about what happened seemed to think everything is better. What they don't realize is that I have thought about that day SO often. For me it wasn't a feeling or a pain that went away. If anything my heart ached even more and I felt more lost then ever. In the last few months I have be contemplating ending things again. I don't feel that I can reach out to people, so I have tried to use the online route. I don't want to hear that everything will be okay...I just hope that I am not alone in feeling what I have felt and gone through.