All of my parent's friend's children are better at everything than I am. Same goes for all of my relatives and such that are around my age. I have to be the ONLY fucking loser with no friends, no future, no hope, no zest for life, NOTHING!!! When all of my parent's friend's kids start their first year of university soon, they'll make a dozen friends, get straight As, blah blah blah. Whereas I will be all alone and miserable there, making only decent grades, having to live near the campus near my mom because I'm too fucking imcompentent to do anything by my self. I have no future, even if I graduate from university without getting kicked out or commiting sucide before then, I'll be all alone for the rest of my life and eventually commit suicide from the lonilness and such. At the rate I'm going, I'm destined to be a failure, my dad and mom keep telling me to change, to work harder in my grades, be more disciplined, go out and talk to people, etc. I'm too fucked up to change, there's too many things to change about me. I'm better off dying and hopefully being reincarnated and starting from scratch or something. I wish I was dead right now, everyone around me is better than me, all happy, sucessful, etc. I can't even be fucking depressed because that'll just make my parents more upset at me, and they are already struggling with a lot of other problems. So I have to hide my pain and misery. This is not the life for me, I have to die, I have to commit sucide.