I just can’t stand it. I try to be nice to people, help them out, be a friend, but everyone I meet is just so cold, aloof and even downright cruel. Just as an example of what I’m talking about: a new neighbour moved in next door. I live in a terrace house and the walls are pretty thin, so it’s almost like living in the same place as one another. I went around the other day and knocked on her door, hoping to introduce myself. She came to the door and just stared at me through the glass, not saying a word. That made me feel really uneasy but I persevered and said that I lived next door. She nodded and pointed me to the back of the house where she opened the back door. Our conversation went something like this: ME: “Hi I live next door. I just thought I’d come across and introduce myself. We’ve been living next to each other for a while and it occurred to me that I don’t even know your name?” HER: “Kay.” ME: “Hi Kay, I’m Kiy.” Awkward moment of silence. ME: “So… I was just thinking that since we are going to be neighbours it would be good to know each other. Could I come in and have a cup of tea or something?” HER: “I’m going out. You can come back later if you like.” ME: “Oh… OK. Well I’ll see you later then.” She did in fact go out, but it was a few hours later. When she came home she sneaked into the house hoping that I wouldn’t know that she had come back, so I thought it’d be best if I just left her to it. I’m not going to impose myself on someone who doesn’t want me there. It’s really antisocial however. As I say, we’re neighbors and quite possibly are going to be for some time. Where is the harm in getting to know one another? You never know when it might come in handy. Now that’s just one example, but that kind of thing is pretty typical. I don’t think I look very frightening or anything. I’m 32, but I look younger than that. I’m not ugly, nor stunning. I don’t have a powerful bearing about me or a forceful attitude, quite the opposite in fact. I’m a really gentle person, a bit weary and morose, but friendly and open. I don’t understand how that combination of characteristics makes me so repulsive towards people? I get why that combination has me taken advantage of and stepped on a lot, but repulsed…? I just don’t get it.