I don't know what to do. Im still seeking help (i have an appointment for next tuesday at 1) I rescheduled my appointment from yesterday because I was feeling much better and I didnt want to pay the copay due from insurance. Big mistake.... I should have went because I had a breakdown while driving to a friends house today. But the stupid thing is...NOTHING CAUSED IT. NOTHING MADE ME MAD OR SAD. these feelings came from nowhere. All of a sudden I was crying like someone killed my best friend! Suddenly I started sending myfriend text messages like I want to kill myself. Ive upset a lot of people because they know I'm "sick". It almost makes me want to do it. I feel like the Boy who Cried Wolf. I feel like "dont talk about it...just do it" :sad: I dont want to be a burden. Obviously if i keep telling them, I want some help. Right? I told my friend she should worry about the day that she doesnt hear from me. What should I do? I'm also scared that if I tell my therapist eveything thats wrong with me, she will lock me up.