This is about my 4th post about feeling suicidal and depressed. I appreciate all your support with my previous posts but nothing helps. Everyone posts: Feeling depressed/sad/suicidal is temporary. Suicide solves the temporary problem (I've felt this way since I was 12) I'm 20 Talk to your doctor about medication (I've been on 8-9 anti-depressants and they all have the same result. Not much.) Find a hobby/Find your passion/get something that keeps you going. (if I could wish myself a passion that kept me from feeling bad I wouldn't be posting) (If it seems like it's been posted before, it probably has) I know it seems that I am angry. I am very angry. I hate my mother, father, nearly the whole population. My insurance is going through a transition so I can't refill my prescription for a few days and I've already missed 3 doses. Withdrawal is starting to make itself known. I've filled my prescription at that pharmacy for 2+ years. The only way I can get some pills to hold me over till the insurance thing goes through I have to pay $7 a pill which is $14 a day. I work in a warehouse. I'm fucking poor. I hate whoever is keeping me from getting my pills. I used to cut. I was thrown in a suicide watch. I hate the staff. I hate my mother who put me in there. I hate the people who wrote the policies there. I hate the mentality of suicide watches (in every situation it's good to put someone in there). I wish I wasn't born. I wish a bus would run me over tomorrow on my way to my counselor. I wish I would trip and smash my head open. I don't have enough willpower to kill myself. I've wanted to die for 8 years so temporary shouldn't come up in anyone's posts. There is nothing you can say to convince me life is anything more than pointless. You're born. You live. You die. fun times..