I don't mean to make anyone sad, but a while ago all I could think of was that everyone in my family will eventually die. Now it came to me again. Grandparents, dad, mom. I will be left with a few semi-siblings who don't think too highly of me, and will be constantly told I am rude and bad etc. No one will be around to think of how I was like as a child, that I was ever good, or anything like that.
I think it started a few years ago when I was playing this game with sad music, and suddenly I thought and realized my grama's going to die! And I just kept on playing and crying and crying. I can't stand sad music, which I always hear from the t.v. It makes me cry and think of this.
Sometimes I think of how I'll be all alone and probably homeless or something like that. I want to spend time with people in my family, but I do not feel their warmth. They have been abusive to me, although not majorly, but they definitely fit under the category of "abusive" family, and a lot of people tell me to leave home, etc. Once I even had people tell me to go to a shelter...but I just want them to love me and to spend time with them It's not like this is all out of no where. I lived in a country with bombs and stuff (Israel) and there were times where we were close to ending up a terrorist's victim and stuff...but some how all this sadness comes out now.
Sorry for all the rambling....
I think it started a few years ago when I was playing this game with sad music, and suddenly I thought and realized my grama's going to die! And I just kept on playing and crying and crying. I can't stand sad music, which I always hear from the t.v. It makes me cry and think of this.
Sometimes I think of how I'll be all alone and probably homeless or something like that. I want to spend time with people in my family, but I do not feel their warmth. They have been abusive to me, although not majorly, but they definitely fit under the category of "abusive" family, and a lot of people tell me to leave home, etc. Once I even had people tell me to go to a shelter...but I just want them to love me and to spend time with them It's not like this is all out of no where. I lived in a country with bombs and stuff (Israel) and there were times where we were close to ending up a terrorist's victim and stuff...but some how all this sadness comes out now.
Sorry for all the rambling....