Everything falling apart

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by lancashirelass, Oct 6, 2011.

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  1. lancashirelass

    lancashirelass Well-Known Member

    Everything is falling apart. My so called mate has decided she doesn't want to be there for me which means i don't want t go to tai chi anymore s it wold be awkward. Also it mens all the ppl that wre going to help me move are not going to help now. lso my gf lives the othr side of the wold so i feel so alone and don't thik i can cope. I want all my pain to end it's like everytime i let my guard down someone crushes me even more.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hugs to you hun
  3. windlepoons

    windlepoons Well-Known Member

    Are you sure you will have no help to move?
    I am sorry you are so far away from your partner, that is always very hard.

    We are here to help. Are you sure you could not go alone to Tai Chi?
  4. lancashirelass

    lancashirelass Well-Known Member

    I just want to DIE!
  5. windlepoons

    windlepoons Well-Known Member

    Please talk to us Lancashirelass, tell us why you are moving?
  6. lancashirelass

    lancashirelass Well-Known Member

    I am moving to get away from my drunken ex. But i as meant to move 3 doors away from ex mate. Fuck it i have nothing left to live for now.
  7. windlepoons

    windlepoons Well-Known Member

    Away from your drunk ex, I bet you will feel much safer. And maybe your friend will be better after some time has passed - do you know why she is acting this way?
  8. lancashirelass

    lancashirelass Well-Known Member

    Yea cos hehas had enough of me.
  9. jimk

    jimk Staff Alumni

    lanchas, just maybe it is time to reach out for yoruself to some professional person on the crisis line or the mental health center.. lot of pain for sure for you but time to perhaps to get some real help. you take care, Jim
  10. windlepoons

    windlepoons Well-Known Member

    Did he say that or is that your bad state of mind talking?
  11. Animosity

    Animosity Forum & Chat Buddy

    :hug: I hope youre okay. <3
  12. lancashirelass

    lancashirelass Well-Known Member

    I won't do anything for the sake of my gf i just feel like i want to die i know i will get through this.
  13. windlepoons

    windlepoons Well-Known Member

    Good to hear that you are OK and are not going to do anything for whatever reason.
  14. peacelovingguy

    peacelovingguy Well-Known Member

    Hey there Lancashire lass - glad you decided to persevere in this.

    Forgive me if I'm prying - but you have a girlfriend? - I mean your saying its a relationship? Not just a mate. And she lives on the other side of the world? not sure how that works out actually - unless she is a frequent flier and pretty well off.

    I got mates married who have worked away for extended periods - so if a relationship is well established then its easy to spend time apart - well - not easy if you really love them - but your earning money to take care of her maybe the kids and so on.

    As for the drunken ex - well, I have been in the situation whereby women drank a LOT - and then would come the clip clop of the sound of the high heels - clip clop - slip!! - because women drinking a lot - wearing high heels - they beat a pattern on the pavement - you know before she knocks if she is loaded.

    Well it can be fun - some women are funny drunk - so that makes me laugh which is always a bonus.

    But - they can be troublesome! I mean - hell-bent on trouble - and getting all emotional on drink - trying to explain how they feel - lol - usually its just ineligible - can't understand what is being said - something like.......

    "but - sob - love you- sob sob - and he was just a one night stand - and sob - weep"

    Men can be worse! Nothing worse than the sight of a weeping man outside the pub hitting the walls. Saw one the other night - he was wailing like a young James Brown - weeping and a wailing.

    - I'm not demeaning anyone real down - the lady of the bottle I knew was not depressed in any way shape or form until she drank half a bottle of vodka and maybe 5 pints of cider.

    Plus she would have a smoke also - you know - not tobacco. So that was neat. Nothing worse than a drink woman crying the blues about someone on the bong. They are weeping from the effects of their drug of choice and get moody on someone who actually never cries - not like that! At sad films - sure - on my own!!!

    Cry me a river part 495873.

    IF your drunk at that level - you'll understand a drunk women or man. But a guy cannot get as drunk as the women in my town - not if he wants to actually escort them home and stop them falling over. I admit - some of these hard boozing ladies - would be escorting me home - keeping up with English women - lol - you got to believe we're the hardest hitting boozers in Europe - ergo the world.

    I admire the spirit of women with depression who do go to the local pub!

    Do you know that going out for just a pint or two- a couple of nights a week - and having some company and banter is better than Prozac?

    Well once you are able to go to a pub - and chill out a little - your not doing too badly. At least you keep the social connections open - and its good to mix with your neighbours and fellow citizens. Plus - if your single - then the pub is THE place to be and the invitations will come eventually - and the sympathy of your fellow man and women extended when times are not so good for us.

    Shame we never all lived near each pother right now - and could maybe hire a room - pretend its a birthday party - I mean you gonna book a room using the name 'suicide forum get together'? - lol - you gonna wear that t-shirt?

    So we'd all have to lie - outrageously so - but not to each other - and maybe we could play emo music - drink wine and read 13th century poems about love - and see who had the most evil women out of all of us.

    I claim that prize - well - she was so evil she actually thought I loved my guitars more than her so asked for proof I loved her more. Get rid of the guitars and stop silly dreams of bands and whatever!! Be more serious - she said - so I seriously vanished.

    Actually - that was not 'evil' - some of you got better tales - that's my worse - but we're talking a few weeks of heady romance. But the only women who frowned when I picked up my guitar. OK - I was not brilliant - in a conventional sense - but I was playing songs from the 1920s when everyone said that was all finished with - and even acoustic guitars were 'sh**' I practised on my guitar. The lads - my mates understood - naturally! For them it was normal for someone to stay in for a few months because he needed to learn slide guitar.

    Well - I got my keyboard now also. At the stage were I need to learn 12 chords - well I know more than 12 but don't play music so it depends if I'm strapped up with the stratocaster - so I can play a chord on the guitar - then match it on the piano.

    I play all the major and minor - e major 7 and whatever - I just don't read music - so guess I play all the variations of a chord - but I like to learn by ear - and don't fancy being in an orchestra. Rock and blues and folk was invented by poor people as we never had access to a philharmonic orchestra. We needed music for the bars - and in England long have we had that tradition of pubs and music.

    If I was a counsellor - I'd have music blasting out people entered into the room. Even better a drum kit in the corner - I could have my guitar - just treat drummers who are depressed - but secretly just be searching for 'the one'.

    Its easier to find someone to love than find a good drummer.

    Ideally - I'd meet a women who was a drummer. Never even thought of that till now - which shows I'm selfless - or epically dumb.

    Who is that girl who drums for the White Stripes? Think she is married the guitarist - but what's his story? Maybe he slaps her around - thinks he is cool for it - well - that could my opening there - heroically pounce upon him - be beaten up but gain her sympathy and unmask him for being a thug who beat up innocent men pouncing on him for totally understandable reasons.

    So - that would be nice - she'd come to the hospital - denounce him - pledge undying love to me! Not that I'd blame her - I'd pledge undying love to me if I was a famous women drummer and met myself.

    Not sure if I'm handing out advice her or its a cry for help!

    A cry for a drummer!

    But if she was a drummer who was smart savvy and attractive under the glow of a neon light in a bar - and had her own transport.

    Maybe not the white stripes girl - I mean - if she fell for 'him' - she'd fall for anyone anyhow - so that came to a tragic end - before it even started.

    Good luck out there.

    There is a gale blowing up here!! Saw the rain sweeping before - you can see it reach from the clouds - well I can! I'm off out in the storm but love it - and will walk through the woods - the thrill of the noise from the trees blowing till the branches reach the ground. Kids lit a fire and put a gas canister in it - but that boom - loud as it was pales in comparison to what nature has. Either way - smaller gas canisters are not protected - the big ones should never explode as the seal melts and so that metal bomb like container does not become deadly shrapnel!! But smaller gas ones - its been known to blind people at least - sure people have been killed also I'd figure. But - kids enjoy danger - always will - so keep an eye on them!

    later for more insights in the train of thoughts that comes after consideration of the stuff we all go through.

    Thanks for the share Lancashire lass and hope you have a nice evening.

    PS - you can get help with moving if you claim benefits - not much but something - also plenty of your man with a van types - times are hard so I'd expect a couple of men to move everything in a few trips perhaps - depending on distance - for £50 or so. Would be handy to have family or a couple of friends even neighbours give a hand if you have to hire a box van - which I've done a few time for moving and rubbish removal - hire is costly with the deposit! Maybe £200 or so - but the hire ought to be cheap and by the hour with some. Shop around there.

    I bet uf you put a postcard up in a newsagents you'd get a few calls - maybe a card there offering cheap rate s- this will include a couple of lads to move stuff - transport and move the boxed stuff back in.

    You can get boxes for FREE off local shops. Otherwise a few quid for the flatpack cardboard boxes - quite big - and sturdy - box and label!

    Make sure you put all the stuff you need right away in its own box and label it.

    Last time I moved - well - I still got boxes there unopened.

    I got dozens of boxes off builders who I made tea for. Other gifts also - filler and stuff - plaster - paint.
  15. In a Lonely Place

    In a Lonely Place Well-Known Member

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