I am tired of trying things over and over. As I have posted here before, I took all of the suggestions into account. Joined clubs, helped volunteer. I still felt isolated and it wasn't because of me. If you were in my place, then you would understand. I have been discouraged since birth. Now I am 25. Loser. No friends. This is not an exaggeration, I literally do not have any friends at all. I have no one to talk to( and please dont pretend to care and say "can i talk to you?" or "I care", becasue trust me, according to experience, there were only people who say that, but no action). I don't have anything to live for. I just have this huge void where my feelings used to be and all that's left is this overwhelming sense of despair and I just cannot cope any more. Either way I can't take this suffocating loneliness anymore. It hurts every single day and it's just not worth it anymore.