I can't do this anymore. This is me reaching out. I've been a member since 2009 an I've never felt so dead inside. Please some, anyone come take me away from myself. I can't breathe or think or speak. I am feeling trapped in my mind. I have planned an have methods in place, but now I am begging for someone to just save me from myself. I have no one outside of this site. I don't have anyone here either. I hurt all the time an it's all I can remember a time when I didn't. I don't want to live like this anymore, I just don't want to live at all. I am shaking an I've already harmed myself, it's only going to snowball. I don't understand anything anymore. This is what my cry for help looks like, I am breaking. Everything hurts.