Everything I do is bad.. so I should just die..

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by devil_sora, Mar 18, 2007.

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  1. devil_sora

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    I'm sure some other people here can relate to what I'm saying...


    When I drink I piss off countles cultres...
    I never stopped to think that my every action is pissing someone else off...
    It has ocurred to me more and more lately that every little thing that I do pisses everyone off....

    I am incapable of doing anything good for anyone else...
    My hand has finallly lost its purpose...
    I was going to wait untill 2008 to die... however I don't think I should wait such a long time... I have waited 8 years thats long enough...

    I am so tierd of feeling guilty for things of the past... and present...
    i cannot make others smile...
    I have lost that ability...
    These days I find myself giving a fake yet believable smile...
    But I can't anymore...
    I feel the best thing I could do is end it all and leave forever...

    There is one song that sums up what I've been feeling for three years...
    My time is up...
    I have experianced the childhood that i lost these last few months...
    and now its time :)

    anyone else want to team up? I'm in the Sydney area...

    here is the song enjoy :) if anyone wants the amv for it i have it in my pc so i can send it to you

    comm susser tod - evangelion

    I know, I know I've let you down,
    I've been a fool to myself.
    I thought that I could live for no one else,
    But now, through all the hurt and pain,
    It's time for me to respect.
    The ones you love mean more than anything.

    So with sadness in my heart,
    I feel the best thing I could do,
    Is end it all, and leave forever.
    What's done is done, it feels so bad,
    What once was happy now is sad.
    I'll never love again.
    My world is ending.

    I wish that I could turn back time,
    'Cause now the guilt is all mine.
    Can't live without the trust from those you love.
    I know we can't forget the past,
    You can't forget love and pride.
    Because of that, it's killing me inside.

    It all returns to nothing,
    It all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down.

    It all returns to nothing,
    I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down.

    In my heart of hearts,
    I know that I could never love again.
    I've lost everything... Everything...
    Everything that matters to me matters in this world.


    It all returns to nothing,
    It just keeps tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down.

    It all returns to nothing,
    I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down.


    how true is this song? ^^ I recomend it to everyone who feels it applies to them.

    sora yori
     
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