My life is total turmoil.. i use to have a good family..and i was close to all my friends now i am distant and disconnected to the rest of the world.. my wife and I have split she says she doesnt love me anymore..I only see my son everyother weekend and i miss him dearly..he was the glue that held me together hearing his little 2yr old voice and laughter ring throughout the house.. now i he barely knows who i am..ever since the split i have been unemployed for about 4 months..with no sight of a new job..my bills are backed up beyond belief I'm being sued by everyone and their brother..its just hard waking up in the morning..dealing with all this shit. I can't even afford a decent painless method of suicide "no pills..no gun" hell i can't even put gas in my car let alone buy a 12guage or 357..its just so hard.. i have a new girlfriend she has 2 amazing kids. and it just makes me miss my own son very much. i feel guilty that i just couldnt be around him...and that daddy is nowhere to be found when he needs me. I am seriously at my witts end. I have had a life of trouble and everything has just come to a full stop right now the emotions are killing me..the guilt is killing me...my life might as well be over.. i think about hanging myself from a tree at least 50 times a day but i never have the courage to do it "catholic" for fear of eternal damnation. and that feeling is slowing fading away.