Workwise, at least. I feel awful about myself and longterm things look awful. I'm essentially going to continue living for its own sake until my parents die, at which point I'll have nothing really tying me to life. That's awful, but is keeping me here. Thing is, as per all of my pre-suicide attempts, I'm feeling more selfish and more willing to attempt. <mod edit - method> I feel more confused than anything else. Is there a way out? Is there a thing?