everything is gone

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by laylou, Apr 4, 2012.

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  1. laylou

    laylou Active Member

    They told me give up drugs, give up alcohol, give up
    cigarettes, it will help and make you feel better!!!
    It hasn't worked!!! Now I have nothing to numb me
    and my husband won't let me have anything.
    I feel like I'm going insane. I've been taking extra
    meds which at least make me drowsy but not that
    pure relaxed numbness marajuana gives me.
    Yet my husband is growing it for his friends,
    so so tempting but can't risk getting caught pinching
    some. He also says he needs it for his m.s but
    what about me. I know I sound selfish but it's
    hell living here!!!!!!!!!
  2. AzuralXIII

    AzuralXIII New Member

    Actually, you don't sound selfish to me. I completely understand how you feel, and your reaction makes sense. It really is hell being here without the drugs, I know. I got cut off my brand of high to help me also. But don't worry, you'll start getting used to it soon, I promise. Or you'll get the drugs you need back. So hold on and somehow things will be okay, I swear.
  3. laylou

    laylou Active Member

    I've been off it for 8mths but still struggling.
    I actually pinched a bit this morning and rolled
    two joints. Smoked one and saving the other.
    God I hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  4. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    :/ well... I am not one who is going to stop people from their addicitons... such is the gift and curse of free-will. I always recommend working out. Because that gives me a huge high that I can ride for hours. Plus it is good for you too.
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