i've got nowhere else to turn. I'm depressed and suicidal. Thought I had it under control again until a few days ago and now I'm so low again. I'm on medication and seeing a counsellor, but nothing helps. I feel conflicted and confused all of the time. I can't talk to my family, although thats what the counsellor suggests. I just think they don't really understand what people are going through. The things she tells me to do are just not going to happen. I cant even talk to my husband anymore, which is hard because I used to be able to. I feel constantly guilty at my suicidal thought because of my kids. This is where i'm so conflicted, because i just want to be out of this life, but don't want to leave my kids even though I know they'll be better of without me.