Everything is really bad right now

[seeking connection]

I haven't even had a chance to write my own story yet, but that will have to wait. I woke up sobbing today because I am so stressed and my elderly partner just left for emergency at the hospital. I realized last night how my depression has affected his health. I had not tole him I was planning suicide, but he found out. He can't deal with this as he has had a heart attack in the past and is feeling chest tightness and a lot of tension. We talked about him going to live with his son, but he has no way to get there (he can't drive anymore and I'm restricted to in-town driving as both of us have macular degeneration). But being left alone would definitely push me over the edge as I would be alone again. I can't handle that as I have no friends, no family; I am all ALONE. I don't know what to do and I'm feeling desperate.

 

[Brân]

Hey, I'm sorry you're going through this, it sounds really stressful. I know it's not the same as having someone with you in person, but please remember that you are not alone as long as you're here with us. We'll always listen.

 

[A_J_R]

Sounds difficult. I'm so sorry. And yes, there are people here to listen. Take care.

 

[may71]

Sorry that you're going through this.

I don't know what to do and I'm feeling desperate

Do you want suggestions about what to do?

I hope something can help and you and your partner can work something out.

Sending hugs

 

[AceFace]

I haven't even had a chance to write my own story yet, but that will have to wait. I woke up sobbing today because I am so stressed and my elderly partner just left for emergency at the hospital. I realized last night how my depression has affected his health. I had not tole him I was planning suicide, but he found out. He can't deal with this as he has had a heart attack in the past and is feeling chest tightness and a lot of tension. We talked about him going to live with his son, but he has no way to get there (he can't drive anymore and I'm restricted to in-town driving as both of us have macular degeneration). But being left alone would definitely push me over the edge as I would be alone again. I can't handle that as I have no friends, no family; I am all ALONE. I don't know what to do and I'm feeling desperate.

🫂🫂

 

[Greyghost]

@seeking connection
I am so sorry to read what you and your partner are going through at the moment. It is very difficult when both partners are dependent on one another and there is no one else around to help.

I would like to make a couple of suggestions for support if I may, but feel free to ignore them if they don't feel right for you.

Firstly for yourself: you can contact Samaritans 24/7 if you just need someone to talk to. They can be reached on 116123 or you can email [email protected]
Please note that a response to an email may at least 24 hours, so if you are in immediate need, a phone call is best.
It may also be worth speaking to your GP and possibly being referred for local mental health support.

Secondly for both of you: if you haven't already explored these avenues it may be worth contacting your Local Authority for a needs assessment (google Single Point of Contact and your home area). It may be that you and/or your partner are entitled to some kind of assistance. I know that all organisations are overwhelmed with people needing help right now, but you have nothing to lose by asking.

[Edited to add: Sorry, I was assuming you are in the UK, which you might not be. However there will likely be similar avenues of contact wherever you are]
https://www.befrienders.org/

I do hope the overwhelm you are feeling starts to reduce soon.

Kind thoughts
Greyghost