i have nothing. im just me, and i hate me. i feel so fucking scared to go into college cus i KNOW people are judging me. it actually terrifies me. i jst need to escape this world. but apart of me doesnt want to go. but i dont know if i can keep fighting the suicidal thoughts. i was lying in bed for an hour or so just fantasising about cutting myself. i dont have the energy tonight to be cleaning up after myself, so i havent cut...yet. but ive come online to try and distract myself. gosh i hate feeling like this. i really do. my mind hurts. my heart hurts. my stomach hurts. why am i so sad??? i know none of you like me. no one at college likes me either. why would you? im so alone in myself. i need to break free of this shit. but i dont know how. :sad: this sucks. please world. dont judge me.